I'd tell myself to
Say I love you a little less
Cause it's oh so empty
Say you're beautiful a little more
Cause that's so worthwhile
Or demand that I
Never cast a look their way
Cause it just won't happen
Never fall into those routines
Cause I can't break them

If I could sleep to clear my head
I expect I would still wonder
In fact I definitely would
It'd never make a difference

I'd force myself to
Try to hide away a little less
Cause it doesn't help me
Try to get around a little more
Cause I'm oh so lonely
Or manage then to
Fuck myself over a little less
Cause it clean breaks me down
Say what I truly mean to you
Cause my heart still can't take it