Today I looked back over the years
and all the things I have accomplished,
Honestly I am not pleased with myself
for all the mistakes that I have made.
Over and over again I have repeated things
despite knowing so much better,
Letting myself trust people
and getting that trust betrayed.
My past is filled with so much
that I want to avoid and forget,
Doing that would doom my future
to repeat once more all those things.
The cycle must be broken
and I must learn from those things,
So that tomorrow will not copy
each of my yesterday's.
Today I made a deep promise
to myself and to the one I love,
That the trust I gave out so freely before
will now have to be earned by people.
This to protect both her and I
and the future that we want to share,
Not only for ourselves is this made
but also for any kids we have.
My proudest moments in the past
are those that involve my kids,
While my ex and I don't get along
our kids show the parts of us both.
My life is what I will make of it
and I choose to make it better,
My kids so far, and any possible
deserve every bit I can give them.
I am guilty of a lot of things in my life
that I honestly wish had never happened,
Yet they are part of who and what I am
and will help me to guide my future better.
Each day that dawns anew for me
will be different and better than before,
For tomorrow is not today, nor yesterday
and I will not stay going as I am!
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